God certainly speaks to us in so many different ways. As I was tossing around in my head the words I heard on John Hagee Ministry about “going back to the place where I first found Christ” I thought about the place where I found Christ. The picture above is not the actual church, but it is very close to the church I accepted Christ as Lord of my life.
As I was sitting, I heard a voice say, “Go back. Go back Valerie”. I tried and tried to ignore it, but it became so strong that I simply could not resist it any longer. Has this ever happened to you? If so, you know what I am talking about. I got into the van and drove to the little church. The church is now closed, which absolutely broke my heart (but that’s another post).
As I was driving, a song began to play. I usually turn the radio off before I get out of the van, why, I don’t know, but this time I had forgotten. The words, “Take me back, take me back dear Lord, To the place where I first received you. Take me back, take me back dear Lord where I First believe.” I had to stop the van and pull over because I just could not believe what I had heard! I restarted the song again and yes, those were the exact words I heard! God, you are certainly trying to tell me something. Tears swelled up in my eyes. I knew I had to get back to the church.
As I pulled into the parking lot, I could feel a strong presence. It was peaceful. It was calming. I looked up at the gray and dreary sky. I parked right in front of the church and just sat there listening to the song. The next words in the song pierced my very soul: “I feel that I’m so far from you Lord But still I hear you calling me. Those simple things that I once knew, The memories are drawing me. I must confess, Lord I’ve been blessed But yet my soul’s not satisfied. Renew my faith, restore my joy then dry my weeping eyes“.
I started crying. I said, ““Lord, please forgive me for turning away from you. I have done wrong against you and only you and I have paid dearly for it. Forgive me Lord for leaving you. I know you never left me. Thank you for bringing me back to the place I first received you”.
I sat there crying and waiting .
What was I waiting for?
I do not know………………..But I certainly was about to find out…………………………………
(Take Me Back lyrics written by Andre Crouch)